Every new year, we all are clueless of what’s going to happen, what won’t, what will make or break us and all we have are our ardent hearts or rather our faith and instincts.
Mine just got a little bit interesting in the second of January.
Unexpectedly, something or rather somebody happened to rub his shoes in the doormat across my door, made a little knock and I peeped through the door hole and I let him in, a stranger. All I said in the former sentence is but figuratively. What I assure you is that, he has happened to me and not a day I have been sullen and twisted since the day we met.
I am tired of writing things and words and plans that came from me half heartedly. I am tired of being hurt and stay afloat on promises that made to cross borders of love from friendship. I am but tired expecting and getting disappointed all over again. Do I expect too much? No. Do I hoard band aids? Well, a little bit.
If anything, I pray to God that this is it. But what I pray most for is a God centered relationship, anchored in His will and blessings.
So, is this it? I am praying for it.
All hopes and investment of emotions put to keep until I have my answers.
Piglets. #saturday #highschool #laaglaag
@xkennanx andito na siyaaa! Salamat PK. woohoo. #magnet #refkulangpasamagnet
And a happy new year to my Julian Casablancas. Hahaha. #thestrokes #JulianCasablancas #happynewyear #2014 #daftpunk #instantcrush
Liberty lang bla! Happy new yeat!
Just like anybody else’s year went, mine had a bowl of happy and tragic moments wherein I learned more about myself, the people around me and the unfailing love and faithfulness of God in my life.
Looking back when I first received the letter that I passed the scholarship I was applying, my sea of doubts came hovering inside my head but my motivation was (sad to say) the money. I can take care of my schooling and buy things that I want (guilt free exclusive) and help my parents, of course. But as I think it over, the motivation was actually to finish my degree in three years time and have that feather in my cap or so they said. I was afraid that I won’t make it in this university with my huge biology bosses and mentors walking around my academic carpet crazily. But hey, I survived the 4 semesters and I really am proud of myself and thankful to God for His provision and that dust of wisdom from His that He gave to me. I won’t see myself finishing this without Him,
Then the love life. Sad to say, but I am not ready for anything. I want it (the love life thing), but I am not really sure how bad I wanted it to happen. Maybe I should fix my relationship with God first before He gives me my earthly prince and I am sure when that time comes, I will be ready for anything, for everything. But yeah, there were actually 3 that passed by this year and yeah, I can’t be ready. But one thing I’ll be sure of is that, there will be that someone, I just need to do some little preparations and fix. Not crossing my fingers but letting my palms kiss and praying for the best.
My Dad. I have never been melodramatic with my family or whatsoever but when the time comes God will take him away from us to be in His Home, for sure I will cry, but nevertheless I am prepared of what’s going to happen.
I am as well keeping up with my High School and College friends as well.
I am keeping myself joyful and standing on His promises.
This 2014 will not be easy, but what I am certain of is that God is already there, that’s why I’m gonna face it and let Him kill the dragons.
Have a happy new year everyone!
Romans 8:28. Last devotional page for 2014. Im ready for 2014 with God by my side! =]
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