Do I enjoy using chopsticks and make it a delivery service with the aid of my hands for the oriental dish to my mouth? No. I am struggling on every module of it. I managed, I did, because I was way too hungry to consider it as a stumbling block to the nonstop missed calls of my stomach. Oh look at me, do I enjoy my food? I did! But let me share with you little story about the cashier at Mashitta..she was close to murdering us because she was upset about her life taking orders. We are customers! We have rights and our rights are always right in all goodness and mercy this university has to offer! Okay, that was a lot of raging hormones flowing.
I had a great time Mashitaa. Come visit them at the UP Student Center at University of the Philippines Diliman at Quezon City. =)
No one is truly free if he chooses to please others than choosing to please God. We were formed from His image, we were made to be loved by Him and in return we need to follow Him and with that, it means loving Him back by giving Him our lives.
We don’t even own our lives, it’s His from the very beginning.
Yes, I’ve been through struggle where I try to please the people around me, guys I want to hang out with rather than thinking of things I could do that will put a smile on my Creator’s face. Isn’t it pathetic?
I’m writing this because it seems like nothing is happening to me for the past few days, weeks..seems like God is actually silent although I know in my heart that He isn’t, never will be. I honestly know that I will have a deeper relationship with Him when He gives me challenges and I’m through trials. I am in a current struggle, I need You Lord to be with me and my faith in You is tested during these times of silence.
Reveal Your word to me Father.
I really really really need You more than anything in my life.
I have been into an account of struggles with the people around me which all do experience but with my situation being more or less pricking my faith.
Those who criticize my Savior and it hurts even more to only listen and not defend Him because you have to respect their opinion as much as they respect yours. A fine struggle, a bagful of guilt you can only bear with such low esteem. Lord, I pray for those people who do not believe in You, who use the pain and hurt they are experiencing to question Your plans for them. I pray that sooner or later in Your perfect timing, You will reveal Yourself to them in a manner no one can explain. Open their hearts Father to listen to Your word and use their intellect to know You more and not to break their reason. This reason You have given us must be used for Your glory and knowing You deeper, it has never meant to detract us from the path You want us to tread.
Give me the courage dear Lord to face these people and may You be seen in my life. It’s really indeed sad to think that some of my friends do not believe in You because of their own ridiculous reasons but all I am asking is that You would make me a good soul as I relay to them the joy that You have given me.
I cry Lord for these people who abandon the thought of Your existence and glory. Make me an instrument Lord, please do so.
I have been abandoning the idea and the activity of writing about my emotions because I do not want to revisit it someday and just hover with the idea again of feeling that way. I want to forget my emotions, may not be easy, but I want to do so simply because it never lasts and I do not want to get attached to it.
Albeit a happy or a sad one, I just want to bury them in me like a uranium ore never to be dug out.
I don’t keep a record anymore like I used to. Memories I learned to give away because I find it easier to meditate and focus on things that will come albeit sooner they will be the past too.
Is this healthy? I guess so but I miss writing and a sad thing to admit is that emotions often are the fuel that drive us to write without draft. Such a sad thing to happen for a creative writer who used all inches of her emotions to give out a masterpiece. Now look at her, contented to write to and fro research proposals and boring outputs.
It’s a choice maybe, but if ever I will get used to it, I won’t regret a damn thing I never kept track of what I felt.
“The vision is yet for an appointed time…”
(Habakkuk 2:3, NKJV)
The scripture says, “The vision is for an appointed time.” That means there is a specific time already determined for the fulfillment of the desires God has placed in your heart. The appointed time is the best time! We have to trust that God can see the big picture for our lives. He knows what’s up ahead. He knows what we’re going to need, who we’re going to need, and when they need to show up. If God did everything we ask on our timetable, it would limit us because sometimes, what we’re asking for is too small. Sometimes the person we think we can’t live without, God knows in ten years they’re not going to be good for us. So He is closing the door right now. Sometimes the promotion we want so badly, if God gave it to us right now, He knows it would keep us from a much bigger promotion that He has three years down the road.
Remember, God has the advantage of seeing it all. The longer I live, the more I trust Him. The more I see His hand of faithfulness, the more I know that His plan is better than my plan. Today, trust that He knows what He’s doing. Trust that He has an appointed time, and it is the best time to bring to pass His promises in your life!
If God made everything happen right away, or whenever we wanted it to happen, it wouldn’t require anything of us. We would miss the opportunity to grow because we grow in the difficult times. We grow when our faith is being stretched, when we have to believe when we don’t see any reason to believe, when we stay in faith when our mind is telling us we’re wasting our time, when we give God praise but we really feel like complaining. That’s passing the test. When you do that every day, your faith is not only increasing, your character is not only being developed, but you are one day closer to seeing the promise come to pass.
Today, don’t give up on a promise just because you’ve been waiting a long time. Dig your heels in. Put on a new attitude. God is saying, “Every promise I’ve spoken over you, every dream I’ve placed in your spirit, even the secret petitions of your heart, the dreams you haven’t told anyone about, I still have every intention of bringing them to pass.” Stay close to Him. Obey His Word and move forward in the blessing and victory He has prepared for you!
Who wants to be lonely in a world that demands a life that needs a companion? A definition they perfectly made for a person whom you share your thoughts, emotions, time and frantic vulnerability with. How hard it is to meet that person, how tragic it is to be alone. That, is what social media and the people all around you displays in your window..talk about pathetic, talk about telling these things and not being bitter.
Things do not always go our way, they have never been made to submit in our randomness and instability of emotions. That is why we need a superior Being to lead us, Somebody who knows better than us, Somebody who sees the whole picture and not a portion of it. It is but God.
We make a perfect check list of the person who we want to end up with. A fleeting time comes and all the boxes have been checked but we still feel indifferent or so. This is because we haven’t submitted that checklist to God, we haven’t prayed for it, we just went our own way and submitted to our selfishness instead of His wisdom.
Why do we need to consult Him? Or the right question is, why should we seek a person that has his heart set for God?
Let’s talk about reality here. Men and women who go to church, sit on pews and never miss a Bible study are not perfect, but good suggestions for a partner. But let us try to examine those people’s hearts. Let us venture out to those who do not attend church regularly, look at their hearts and see if we have something to get. We must not judge, however we were led to be in that character.
A person who loves God and prioritizes Him more than you is a man we ought to seek. That person will never hurt you, he will cherish you for the love you give to him is inspired by God and he knows well it is not a toy to be played. You are a music to his soul, his anchor at times he feels disturbed, the one that helps him to know God, a person who you can grow in love and faith with.
But it takes time and patience to find that person.
Let us not lose our standards and commit to the empty promises of this world. It has always been meant to disappoint, let us not hear its voices, let us not conform with it. We are not meant to live in it, we were built for eternity. We were made for more.
Hahahahahaha. Inde ah. Sa June inde na. LOL
C. S. Lewis, A Grief Observed (via how-quick-come-the-reasons)
I know what we are and what we are not.
Too deranged to dig holes hoping to be filled by somebody of sly emotions
Too deranged to expect somebody will rescue you when you fell in those holes.
Bruised you made those foolishness, wounded you get up on your own.
And then metallic summonings hovered,
Poisonous secrets bleeding out your cuts,
You scream as they hurt,
But it has to be done.
The hurt that drove you, caused another hurt self inflicted
Nothing comes done when you choose such option.
Why not delve yourself in mirth instead?
Why dig such frivolous holes in the first place?
You can’t save yourself, so don’t hurt it.
But if you were, it’s not enough.